Friday, March 20, 2015

Two Wonderful Things..

We watched a family movie recently called "Mom's Night Out" which was really funny and good..the movie is about a mom who wonders if she is 'enough' - and at the end of the movie, two statements are made that sum up so well what I feel God has been showing me this past year of my life..

The two thoughts are basically:

My life does not have to change for me to be happy.

I am not a failure; God says I am enough, even perfect.

These two thoughts are so profound to me, and I feel like they are such revelations deep in my heart.  I can really be happy right now, no matter what life looks like at this moment.  And I am really okay/enough right now, no matter what I am like at this moment.  I don't have to wait till things change in order to be happy -  happiness is mine now.  And I don't have to wait till I change to be okay/enough - I am fine right now.  God is fine with me and my life right now, and so I can be as well!

These two truths have given me such peace and joy in the last several months.  I have had a newfound love of life growing inside of me, a cherishing of the simple things like my daughter's smile or long walks in the woods.  I have seen so suddenly the beauty, the wild deliciousness, the precious value of this life we have here on earth, every breath something to be savored, every sunrise and sunset something to be enjoyed, every laugh with a family member something to be cherished.  I have become so grateful for this life and is seems so wonderful, even in the midst of the chaos that sometimes occurs in my circumstances.

And I have been so much more 'okay' with ME lately..so much more willing to give myself a break, to let myself feel what I really feel, even if it is a so-called 'unacceptable' emotion like anger, doubt, bitterness, or frustration.  I have allowed my soul to voice questions and struggles, allowed myself to be real, to be imperfect, to be messy.  And yet I feel more whole, settled, grounded, and at peace than ever!  It seems every time I allow a part of me that is hurting to express that hurt feeling, the feeling seems to be soothed somehow and calm down..and work itself out naturally without any effort..almost as if some part of me that was hurting just wanted to be noticed, heard, loved and validated..allowed to express its feelings and be loved and embraced in the midst of them..and then that part seems to be more okay, calmer, quieted down inside.  It is almost like the hurting parts are like a little child crying, and that little one calms down as it is held, listened to, allowed to share its hurts.  Every part of me deserves love, validation, acceptance and understanding.  Every part of me deserves pampering, kindness, help and support.  Every part of me is made by God and special!

I just wanted to share these two wonderful thoughts.  I am so thankful and grateful for this wonderful life we all are sharing together here on this planet as children of God.  I love each of you and am so thankful to have you as my brothers and sisters in this great family! 

6 comments:

  1. Wow, such a beautiful post, thanks for sharing. What a profound statement, that happiness is available right now to us, that we can be happy with Jesus regardless of our circumstances. The mere fact that we can be happy in the here and now, also ensures that we can have happiness in the future :) Love your thoughts on Grace and your wonderful blog!

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    1. I love the way you put that Anon! The fact of being able to be happy here and now assures us of future and eternal happiness! God is so good! Thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts! Blessings to you!

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  2. This post made me think of a teaching Bertie Brits has entitled "Living the Stable Life" in which he talks about how Paul was able to have stability in his emotions and joy in his life regardless of his circumstances. He teaches about how it was Jesus who brought contentment and joy into His heart, in the midst of such terrible circumstances. And yes, eventually God did take care of Paul's needs, but even before that Paul had such peace that could only be brought by the Holy Spirit.

    I think the best part of your post is where you talk about how all of our emotions are accepted and valued by Him. We are like little children simply needing soothing. And He is so kind that He calms us, restores our peace and joy and most importantly, always values what we feel even if to us it may seem silly.

    I once heard someone say "we don't want to bore Jesus with our long list of concerns, desires and unhealthy emotions", but later I had a thought-why would someone who is so addicted to being around us, loving us and knowing us, ever be "bored" by our thoughts, seemingly silly though they may be. It is akin to two lovers in their initial stages of love, no thoughts and feelings are considered a bore, because they are so infatuated with each other! I think that is how Jesus is with us, He is so infatuated with us, His heart probably beats so fast and maybe He gets butterflies in His stomach just when He thinks about us, and His feelings toward us are a combination of that of a best friend meets lover meets parent; all encompassing!

    Wishing you a Happy Spring!

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    1. As I read your beautiful thoughts and the wonderful things you shared from Bertie Brits, I realized that Jesus never ever gets bored with us! He is so interested in us and all that concerns us! This brings me great joy and relief to know I never could bore Him or bother Him, that He is, as you say, "So infatuated with us" - !
      To begin to experience the stability Bertie spoke of in his message - this is something new to me..and makes me just feel like I am so grounded and settled..truly like a person finding such solid ground under his feet..being on solid rock..the rock of Christ is truly so grounded, affirming, and comforting, no matter what is going on around us. I always felt I had to calm the storm before I could be 'okay' or calm or happy..but to be able to find a peacefulness, an 'okayness' and even happiness in the midst of the whirlwind is something so new to me! Thank you for sharing those thoughts from Bertie as well as your own beautiful thoughts!
      Happy Spring to you as well and many blessings!

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  3. I am feeling low this evening and was telling God about it. I have your blog marked as a favourite, it is one of my 'go to' resources when i need a lift. The two thoughts you share helped me this evening as well as the rest of the blog about it being OK to be open about how i feel, which doesn't come natural to us Brits, especially us fellas. God bless you for sharing this blog.

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  4. Hello there, Anon..I have had the same experience as you of it feeling unnatural to share and open up, even with God. I am so glad to find He is safe. I read a quote recently that God's presence with us 'is not invasive but evokes a sense of belonging.' We belong here with Him. Everything is okay and every feeling is allowed. What a relief to be able to be real with Him and ourselves and just BE. I am so used to thinking certain feelings are 'bad' or 'unacceptable.' But that isn't so, is it? ALL feelings are valid as real feelings that we are experiencing. So glad to be on this wonderful journey with you..God bless you, too..peace and joy and all good things to you!

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May the amazing grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, the extravagant love of God, and the intimate friendship of the Holy Spirit be with all of you. 2 Co. 13:14