Monday, December 29, 2014

Since We Are Carried Along in His Arms, We CANNOT Fail!

Everything is coming together just as it is meant to..no matter what tumultuous feelings are on the surface, our spirit is calm and KNOWS all is well, isn't that wonderful?  The mind can be confused, the mouth can spout off nonsense, the heart can feel depressed and lonely, the body can act out, but the spirit is calm, at peace, at rest in God..the spirit is one with God always no matter what and is in joy and quietness no matter what..sees God no matter what, enjoys love, is love, knows LOVE Himself..the spirit KNOWS!! 

All is calm within no matter what is bubbling on the surface.  In our depths there is no problem, no struggle, no anguish, no fear.  There is only peace and quiet and rest.  There is only God and our spirit is one with Him, joined with Him, part of Him, enclosed by Him and cradled by Him, carried by Him.

So we are safe, so safe and secure!  We are wrapped in God at all times!  Nothing can really get to us, nothing can separate us, nothing can alter this reality of oneness with God, of supreme peace, of belovedness, of fullness of life and joy!  Nothing can disturb our rest there in His bosom.  Nothing can disrupt our relationship there in oneness of Spirit!  We are safe in God's nest of love, deep in the depths of His heart!  Carried along in life, how can we know death?  Carried along in love, how can we know judgment?  Carried along in acceptance, how can we know rejection?  Carried along in strength, how can we know failure??

Carried along  - God is carrying us and HE won't fail..isn't it wonderful to know deep down..somehow it is going to work out, all is well in spite of all the chaos!

That is the biggest revelation God gave me in the past year and it changed my life.  It changed my life!  We can be happy no matter what, we can make it through anything and we WILL all is well and all WILL work out!  Whether we rant and rave or whether we relax and trust, we'll be carried along to the happy ending no matter what..all feelings are allowed, every thought and every real feeling we have is accepted and okay.  WE don't have to act, feel or think a certain way to be okay or make things okay - we ARE okay and everything IS okay..because HE is here embracing us and our feelings and our circumstances in totality!  And HE is the one responsible for our lives, for bringing about the good ending for us all!  So we can relax and enjoy the ride!  All is accepted, nothing depends on us, everything depends on Him, and HE NEVER FAILS!  It reminds me of that verse in the Message Bible "everything is coming together, love is on the way.."

Love holds us, Love carries us, Love does all for us, Love will never fail us!

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Merry Christmas, All Is Well!


I just wanted to share one of my favorite Christmas songs, "All Is Well"  - I love this song because it shares so beautifully and so simply what I think Jesus came to do..to show us who felt so orphaned, rejected and alone, awash in a confusing world of fear and struggle, that truly, ALL is well..we are loved, we are carried, we are not alone..God is with us, God is for us, God is here, so all is well!  It was like He came to tell all the lost and confused and hurting little children that Papa is here, everything is okay, and everything is going to ultimately and forever be okay!

I heard a preacher say recently, "if God loves us just as we are, what was the point of Jesus coming?"  And I heard within my spirit the answer ringing out:  "To prove it!"  God proved His love for us in this - He let us kill His Son and still held His arms out in love to embrace us!  He let us do the worst thing we could to Him and then made our crime work backwards on itself, reversing our deed from murder to miraculous resurrection and giving us real life, eternal life, which is the relationship with Him we'd longed for all throughout history and thought we were too far gone to even hope for! 

He loved us at our worst behavior!  Accepted us when we felt at our lowest!  Thus He freed us from the shadow world we'd been living in, freed us from the lies we'd been bound by, lies that said we were unworthy, awful, filthy, hopeless, orphaned...

Daddy came and turned the light on in that dark room in which we were suffocating, and suddenly we saw!  The people in great darkness saw a great light, the light of God's love and favor in the beautiful face of a vulnerable baby, the strong support of a brother to us all who walked right alongside of us in solidarity with us and shared our sorrows and pains, a friend on the cross loving those who betrayed Him and called them innocent, a triumphant deliverer who unlocked the prisonhouse of the fear of death by conquering death and showing us a happy ending awaits in Papa's arms!

He silenced forever the idea that we had to work our way into God's favor, showing us that reality is "God For Us"..and He silenced forever the idea that we were far from God and unacceptable, showing us that reality is "God With Us!"  He came to prove His love for us all, to prove to us when all 'natural evidence' seemed to point against us and accuse us and condemn us, that really all is well!

All is well between us and God:  He'd never been vindictive or punishing but has been accepting and gracious all along..
All is well in His stance towards us:  He'd always loved us and called us His own..
All is well in our own lives  in the deepest and most ultimate way:   He's always been there for us inside, Christ being revealed IN us as our very own life!
All is eternally well and nothing can change that:  we have been carried along by grace all along and there's never been a doubt whether we'd have a happy ending!
All is well and nothing can take that away:  it was never up to us anyways, but always up to Him, and He never fails!

How wonderful when this blessed Light dawned on this world to show us the peace we have with Him, to show us the oneness we have with Him, to show us the relationship of pure love and acceptance we have with Him, to show us we've always been part of the divine family circle of and are wanted, understood, known, celebrated, embraced, and cherished just as we are!

I just want to say to all my dear friends here how thankful I am for each of you, and how much I wish each of you beloveds a wonderful, peaceful, grace-full Christmas in the blessed joy that for time and eternity, because we are unconditionally loved and held by such a Savior who rescued us from all darkness, confusion and lies, All Is Well!

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

The Real Me

There is a deeper part of me that is the Real Me that is behind all the drama, watching the actors play their parts, seeing the play for what it is, a shadow-show dimly based on the Really Real Life that the Real Self is part of! 

That Real Self is bigger than all the little dramatic scenarios the actors play out with their made up personas, the Real Self loves all those parts of me that are play-acting a part in this drama of earthly life.  The Real Self watches the acting out and loves and accepts every actor and even lovingly, nonjudgmentally allows every action...not going along with the drama yet loving and being present with every actor and every action.  That True Self, the Real ME, is in solidarity with all my hurting parts that ‘act out’ and yet beyond their actions and feelings..caring for all the hurting parts and soothing their fears with love and understanding

That True Self is always firm and stable, always seeing Eternal Reality - always seeing the wholeness at the heart of everything, always aware of the good happy ending that is guaranteed to come, always knowing with that deep inner knowing that all is well..always true and never confused, always calm and never disturbed, always happy and never sad, always loving and good, always connected to God, part of God, made of God, one with God! 

In fact that Real Self is part of God, His divine Breath within this feeble frame, the gentle Blowing of His presence of Pure Love!  We are truly part of this wonderful Being, caught up as part of Him..our True Self is somehow one with God's Self..they are one!  We are flowing with Him at all times, never sad, always at peace, full of joy, part of that great reservoir of love and goodness who is our Papa, the Father of us all, the Source of all that is! 

We are always in perfect harmony with Him in our spirit!  One!  Flowing together as one heart!  No separation, no disturbance, no disagreement!  Right along with Him, we watch the drama of our lives and watch the acting out of all our addictions, struggles, plays for power, fear based mechanisms..and all is accepted, all is loved, nothing is judged 'unacceptable,' no part is rejected, no action is grounds for dismissal..all is loved, all is held, all is accepted, no matter what!  This is the Unconditional Love that we are part of, that we are held by, that we are caught up in, that we truly ARE in our Real Selves, forever!

Monday, December 1, 2014

We ARE That!

How long we have spent trying to get somewhere, trying to change and be better, trying to attain a sense of being 'okay' with God and life..trying to get close to God, get a deeper relationship with Him, get Him to flow out of us more..yet all that was always unnecessary, because all along we have been already there, already at what we were looking for, already who we wanted to be, already one with the One we were seeking!

We can truly say we are not trying to become one, trying to become good, trying to become holy, trying to become filled, trying to become loving, for we ARE that!  It's our identity, our nature, who we are as God's dear children!  The children share the same nature as the Parent.  God is Love, therefore so are we, His kids!  And not only that, we are connected with God so intimately that we are actually part of Him.  Christ even says He is the head and we are His body - all one Person, we being part of God Himself!  Talk about being caught up in a Life greater than your own, a story and existence far beyond your own earthly life!

Whatever it is we have sometimes searched for, longed for, or hoped to have or become, we can now know that we ARE that!  We ARE goodness, we ARE kindness, we ARE wholeness, we ARE fullness, we ARE faithfulness, we ARE holiness, we ARE peace, we ARE joy, we ARE love - we ARE God in these mortal bodies!  He is our deepest, truest, most real part, the core in us that makes us who we are, the Self that is our deepest most real self!  Just as Christ said, so can we say, "I and my Father are ONE."  With ONE, there is no separation, no lack.  With ONENESS, all is well, all is perfect, all is whole and complete.  With ONENESS there is no struggle to become - for we already ARE - there is no trying, there is only BE-ing in quietness and peace and joy, in perfect communion and intimacy.  With ONENESS there is no more trying to know, there is simply knowing and being known, complete transparency and fellowship.  We are truly part of God, we are at rest, we are satisfied, we are grounded, we are secure, we are safe, we are held, we are home, we are Love! 

We're never a separate self trying to become one with God or let Him flow through..we are part of God, one essence, there's no 'middle man' of a separate individual that has to 'do' or 'believe' or even 'understand' something to achieve oneness or allow the flow of love..we ARE That already, we ARE the Love we long for, love flows out of us because we ARE Flowing Love, we ARE part of God and can't be separated from Him any more than we could be separated from our own selves, for really 'we' and 'He' are one and the same in essence and connection and being and truth! We are God in these bodies, by nature and design!There is nothing to do, get to, or become.  We don't have to do, we can simply BE!  At all times we are effortlessly, naturally being Love Himself in these mortal bodies!  Be yourself - that's Him, wow!  Act natural - that's the Spirit in manifestation, wow!  Love because it's all you can do, because it's all you ARE...it comes naturally since it's Who you ARE as "I AM!" 

Thursday, November 20, 2014

You Shall Not...

The old covenant law contained many "shall nots" which had a purpose that is now fulfilled. We are not under that old legislation anymore. Now we are under the new covenant where God provides all for us as a gift and we are free in Him. This covenant also contains some "shall nots" - yet they are so different from the old "shall nots" - rather than making me feel depressed and guilty, they make me feel safe and warm and joyful in Him! They are focused on our secure relationship with God rather than our erratic behavior, for the New Covenant has a relationship focus and not a works focus. These are the "shall nots" I have found in the new covenant. I only used Jesus' words in John. I'm sure if I looked through the rest of the New Testament, I could find many more! Anyway, here are those "shall nots" that I found:

His promises to us in the New Covenant of grace:

1 - You SHALL NOT hunger, but shall be fully satisfied with Him (John 6:35).

2 - You SHALL NOT thirst, but shall have within His very Spirit as an ever-flowing fountain of eternal life (John 4:14).

3 - You SHALL NOT walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life (John 8:12).

4 - You SHALL NOT be a slave to sin or the devil's lies, but shall be free indeed (John 8:32-36).

5 - You SHALL NOT perish, but shall have everlasting life (John 3:16).

6 - You SHALL NOT be snatched from His hand, but shall be safe (John 10:27-8).

7 - You SHALL NOT come into judgment, but have already passed from death to life (John 5:24).

8 - You SHALL NOT follow a stranger, but shall know and follow your Shepherd (John 10:4-5).

9 - You SHALL NOT have your joy stolen, but shall rejoice with great joy (John 16:22).

10 - SHALL NOT be left desolate, but shall have the His Spirit with you always to comfort you (John 14:16-18)!

With His very Spirit inside us as our best friend and LIFE, holding us, loving us, keeping us, living through us AS us, how can we go wrong? If God is for us, who can be against us? We shall not be put to shame but will always be led in triumph, love and grace! All as a gift through Jesus' work for us and His wonderful grace, not ever through our efforts! What a wonderful covenant the New Covenant is!

Friday, November 14, 2014

The Cross - Where Love Silenced the Lying Voice of Shame

The voice of shame is such a terrible voice because it doesn't just accuse us of doing wrong and therefore guilty, it actually accuses of of BEING wrong and therefore worthless..not worthy to be loved, without any dignity, deserving no care or consideration..shameful and embarrassing, rejected and unwanted, not fit for God's presence, 'good for nothing.'  What a lie!  I believed this lie for so many years. I am seeing more and more how the cross dispels such a lie of unworth and shame.  The cross stands as a testimony of our amazing worth to God and of how much we deserve to be loved, cared for and rescued!

The cross says God loves and accepts us even in the midst of any sin...thus, the cross not only assures us of God's love but puts to death any lies or accusations that we are unworthy, shameful, or rejected..for the cross proves we're worth dying for, the cross proves we're not rejected even at our worst, the cross proves Jesus is not ashamed to be counted with us transgressors! And thus the cross forever silences those voices of accusation! 


The cross shows that His love is a loyal love, a love that does not take into account a wrong suffered, a love that keeps no record of wrongs, a love that says of His murderers, "Father, forgive them, for they don't know what they are doing!" He sees past our wrongs to the hurting person beneath, to His little lost child beneath, so in need of his Papa's tender loving care!  
 
The cross shouts for all eternity, "I came to my own and you, my very own children, are worth it! You are worth My very own life! You are so special and beloved and accepted in My sight that I'd rather die than miss out on fellowship with You! I can't get you out of My heart, our of My thoughts, out of My existence! I am forever on your side, forever for you! You're my very own children, and I'd do anything for you! I will never leave you or forsake you. I will never turn you out in the cold, never forget you. You're everything to Me, and I will never let anything keep us from enjoying sweet communion together for ever and always!"
The cross forever stands as our proof of God's love and our value to Him in the face of any accusation or lying voice of condemnation or shame...for He says we're worth dying for, we're loved no matter what we do, we can't drive Him away no matter how we act, He's for us, on our side, to do us good, no matter what, forever and always! Committed, faithful, unconditional, nonjudgmental, generous, self-sacrificing, other-centered, 100% pure LOVE! That's what He is, and the cross is our proof that it is so! Hallelujah!

Sunday, November 9, 2014

We're Always Innocent Chilren Before Him!

I just wanted to share some wonderful thoughts that came up in an email conversation with my beautiful friend Rachel recently as we were talking about how our Father sees us, His children:

"I have certainly had many ups and downs but I guess really, all along I was being carried by another, who is living within me and never have I been outside of Him. I think maybe deep down we all just want to know that we are ok and loved no matter what our circumstances are or how we act in situations. So it's really such a relief to think that has been true for us all along and is true every moment. Even greater is the fact that our actions, thoughts, feelings etc. do not determine who we are, and God only sees us as precious children, with pure thoughts, feelings, actions etc. Because if those things were to define us we would be measuring ourselves on a yard stick, unable to fully feel unconditionally loved and ultimately putting ourselves back under a law, which is fine, but rather obsolete since Jesus removed all of that!

"You know I wonder sometimes whether at our core we wish to just be children again. Not in the sense that we wouldn't get to experience the freedoms of being an adult, but children are always loved and doted on for simply being. I know that sometimes children do not get to experience that if their home life is not so good, but children just want to feel loved and free and happy at the core. Maybe God knows that is true about each of us and wishes to love us like that, allowing us to just play, be free, savor the moment and be happy. And maybe even our actions and thoughts, though not always in line with what we hope to be true, aren't even a concern to Him. It is as if He is a parent that watches his young child steal a cookie from the cookie jar- the parent knows it is all out of innocence and could never feel that his child has actually done anything wrong! And in this case, unlike the parent who catches his or her child stealing a cookie-we are never reprimanded or made to feel as if our actions aren't accepted, for every bit of us is fully accepted!"
 
Wow, isn't it wonderful to know that we are truly innocent before Him, even in the midst of our 'hands in the cookie jar' moments, that our hearts are truly innocent and pure deep down, that there is NO shame, blame, guilting, condemning or punishment coming to us from our Daddy at all, ever!  Our performance is never a measure of our worth - His Love is the measure of our worth, and that Love is infinite, eternal, unconditional!  Wow!  That means our worth, our value, is infinite, eternal, unconditional!Just as our own children are worth the world to us and we'd do anything, truly anything, for them, so we are priceless and beyond valuable to Him, worth the whole cosmos times infinity!  For the magniitude of our dignity and honor before Him is beyond infinite, beyond price, beyond understanding or imagining!  You are His treasure, His whole world!  You mean everything to Him!  
 
And He always sees and knows and relates to you just as you are - innocent, pure and sweet like a little tiny child!  Pure, untainted, unmarred, with only innocent thoughts and motives and intentions.  He sees the deepest part of Himself and only sees His own image there!  We are made in the image of Love, Pure Love, vast and open and free, so how could we ever be anything else BUT that pure love?  We couldn't!  The source and wellspring of our very life is God, is a Pure Source, like sweet crystal clear water, a fountain of Perfect Love springing up from within giving us life, BEING our Life..and if the Source (God) is pure, the water springing from it (humanity) is pure! 

As my dear sister Rachel has said so well, we only want to be loved, don't we?  That is our one pure innocent motive behind it all, just a longing to know we are okay and loved no matter what.  When we find out we are truly loved without condition, without measure, without end, everything inside starts to breathe easy and rest.  When we find out we really are His children, being held in Love by our Papa at all times - that we are truly "being carried by another" who is eternally for us, in us, as us - we naturally settle down and fall asleep in His arms!

There is Someone in us, in our depths, Someone who is for us, Someone who is carrying us, Someone who is loving us, and we will never be anything other than His beloved, innocent children, held fast in His arms!  We are ONE with this wonderful Someone, this wonderful Father, made of His DNA, breathing His Spirit as our breath, having His very nature of Love, feeling His heartbeat sound out His presence in us at every moment..We are ONE, never TWO!  We are ONE, together, a unity, ONE Spirit, and we can never be separated or apart!  We are ONE, we are HOME, we are PURE, we are LOVED!

Monday, November 3, 2014

A God Beyond All Imaginings..

If we had never heard of God, had never read anything about Him or been taught anything about Him, and we were to start imagining what we would want a God to be like, what would we imagine?

I would imagine:


Someone that is just one immense bundle of pure love, acceptance and joy...

Someone who would forgive all I did wrong, understand me perfectly, hold me no matter what...

Someone I need never fear but instead a protector who sheltered me safely and put away all fear...

Someone of infinite peace who made me feel so comfortable in His presence, who always brought rest to my weary heart and comforted me in every way, who took care of me and made sure everything in my life worked out for the very best...

Someone who would be like the perfect parent, spouse and friend all wrapped up in one and magnified by infinity...

Someone who would love me like I'd always dreamed of being loved, who would never leave me...

Someone whom I couldn't drive away no matter what I did, who was committed to me no matter what, who would see me through to the end and make sure I'd be with Him forever!

Well, wouldn't God be more wonderful than any of those amazing thoughts? Yes, surely God is way beyond what we could ever ask or imagine! Surely He is infinitely better than we could ever dream! All the ideas you could imagine of the most wonderful, perfectly kind, gentle, accepting, protective, caring, friendly, joyful and peaceful and loyal Being of pure Love...multiplied by infinity...all that is just a tiny glimmer of the beauty of all God is for us and to us!! He is more wonderful and more loving and more accepting than we could ever imagine!


He is truly a Love beyond all imaginings!  Thank You Papa!  We couldn't have imagined a better Friend, a more loving Father, a more wonderful GOD than You are to us every moment!   Any time we have ever thought You to be any less than Perfect Love, it only meant that our vision was clouded by lies and confusion..for Your name is Love and Love is the ONLY expression of Your nature!  Thank You dear Papa and thank You dear Jesus for showing us this very thing in the incarnation, the cross and the resurrection..You revealed the Father's face in Your very own face, and what was revealed is that God, our Papa, is Love and ONLY Love, and that we are His beloved little children!  And thank You Holy Spirit for making that love a real experience in our lives!

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Falling in Love with Grace All Over Again

I feel that lately, I am falling in love with Grace all over again, as it hits me in a new way, that beautiful old message that sounds so fresh and new...that I am accepted, that my life is accepted, that everyone is accepted, that ALL is accepted, unconditionally, eternally, radically accepted!

All is accepted, so I can accept myself and my life as they are right now, in this moment, without any requirement or pressure for change..

I feel like Papa is opening my eyes all over again to see that right now, everything is okay, I am okay, life is okay...everything really is perfect somehow...what a wonderful feeling it gives, don't you think? 

And it allows me to actually enjoy this moment without feeling pressured to change.  To just BE! 

I feel like I am also realizing my oneness with God in a deeper and more profound way, that we are truly ONE, that I am like a little bit of God in this human body, just feeling so whole and free and expansive knowing that the deepest truest self down deep in me, my real Self, is really one with and somehow part of God my Father - one! 

It makes me feel so complete and whole and strong, so good about myself!  If I am really one with Him like that, then at the most fundamental level, I don't really have any problems, do I!?  I don't have any faith problems, love problems, issues to work on, or deficiencies..I don't have any insurmountable difficulties, overwhelming troubles or empty places..for I am one with infinite perfect Love, I am so whole! 

And it makes me feel so good about other people..that they are all perfect expressions of God as well!  They don't need changing, fixing, or improving, they simply need to hear, as we all do, the wonderful message of grace - that all is accepted, loved, held, and carried by the One Lover who is the heart of all!  All is whole, complete, perfect and deep-down okay and all right in the One who makes everything all right!

Isn't grace wonderful?  I feel it takes my breath away again and again, like a fresh breeze on a steamy summer day..or a child's bright laughter..or the way the sunlight dances on the glowing leaves of autumn..Thank You Papa for being Grace through and through, a grace that holds us through it all, accepts us through it all, carries us through it all, so that we can know that at the deepest level, everything is alright, and nothing can change that!

Wonderful, magical Grace!

Monday, October 27, 2014

Jesus Dispelled the Lies!

Jesus came to show us the truth, to do away with lies that had confused us for too long, lies of unworthiness, shame and alienation, lies of unlovableness and inherent badness.  He came to dispel the lies we'd believed, to show us those thoughts and feelings of separation were only in our mind!  "You were alienated from God in your MINDS."  The reconciliation Jesus worked was bringing our mind back to seeing reality, wasn't it, because HE never left, and we only thought we did!  It was a reconciliation of the mind, really, for we've always been together in reality. 

Confused thoughts and lies trapped us in a way of life thinking we were far from God, when really He was in us all along, waiting to be known and enjoyed!  Paul spoke of the day he saw the truth of God's presence in him, saying:  "It pleased God to reveal Christ IN me."  IN!  The wonderful truth is that we have always been IN God and He IN us, wow!  The separation was only in our mind all this time, never something real! 

Even when we acted out our deep fears stemming from the mind's belief in being a separated, shameful, unlovable, 'bad' person, even when we acted on those fears and doubts and killed God's own Son, He showed us the truth, didn't He, by forgiving us, saying we didn't know what we were doing! 

That is perfect LOVE, unconditional Love, Love that embraces the worst thing we could do!  At our worst moment, He loved us..He proved His love by the cross..He showed us we were always lovable, always beloved, always cherished by the Father!  We had thought we were unloved, unlovable..and the cross did away with this lie!  The cross proved how loved we were and are, as if He were saying, "You can do your worst and I'll still love you..You can even kill me and I'll still LOVE YOU!"

And He came out of the grave, basically erasing our crime - ! - without a mention of our wrongdoing, as if to say, "I always knew you were innocent, I always knew you were good!" 

He always knew we were God's children, HE was always our core nature, we always had our Father God's DNA of goodness and love, we just didn't know it..we forgot..our minds were deceived and we fell into transgression..in our minds!  But not in reality, for we could never change our DNA, never stop being in God's perfect image and likeness of LOVE!  It was always there inside us all along, the Great Heart of Love was always beating deep within us, loving us, being Pure Love, in us, as our very DNA!  We were encoded with God/Love all along!  Jesus came along and confirmed that even if we acted totally contrary to that nature, that DNA, it was still true deep down! 

He declared us innocent by the resurrection, wow!  And He confirmed our purity by unleashing the Holy Spirit, rivers of living water that had been pent up in us for so long rushed forth 'from within our innermost being!'  Where He had been all along!

I love how Jesus nailed to the cross every belief we ever had in every lie that ever existed..through His death and resurrection He did away with every lie that ever held us back from enjoying what is rightfully ours by birthright - the right of the children to enjoy their Papa's lap, to hear His voice of tenderness, to feel His warm embrace and KNOW Him in joyful relationship..safe at Home in HIM, where we've always belonged!

Monday, October 20, 2014

Safely IN!

IN!  It just doesn't get any closer than IN!  No matter what we are going through, no matter what long and winding side pathways we wander into here on our earth journey, we are safely IN God at all times, no matter what, and our relationship with Him, being so close that we are IN each other - ! - is always perfect, complete, whole, intact, full, perfect and strong!  Never wavering or changing!

We can't get Him out of us, and we can't get ourselves out of Him..we are IN, IN, IN!  There is just no separation with IN..there is no distance, no waiting for some future closer relationship..it is NOW, for we are closer than close, more intimate than 'beside' or 'with' - we are IN!

We never were out of the One who contains the whole universe, were we?  The distance we 'felt' was really only that, a feeling.  The separation we dreamed was between us was really only that, a dream.  The thought of being away from Him was really only that, a thought.  The sense of lostness was really only that, a sense we had and not real at all.  Did we really think our Papa would lose us, or that He would ever leave it up to us to 'find' our way back?  Did we really think He would ever for a moment not have the whole matter of our existence safely in His hand?  Did we ever really think He did not have things safely in His love plan all along, have US safely in His heart all along?  We have always been so safe in Him and His love!  He can't let us go!  He can't let YOU go, can't let ME go..

He cannot get us out of His mind, out of His thoughts, out of His heart!  He cannot imagine a world without us in it!  He wouldn't want to even exist without us!  His heart would break at the thought, for He cannot bear to BE without us even for a moment.  We have always been the objects of His care and keeping and love, and always will be!

We are so safely enveloped in His being, so tenderly held in His heart, so gently embraced in His arms!  The giant, enormous, wonderful God of Love who explodes beyond the bounds of this universe has got all of us so safely enfolded in His loving Being!  We are held against the chest of the Lover who fills the whole of creation, wrapped in eternal Infinite Love that stretches beyond all our past, present and future.  We are uplifted and carried along by a Love big enough to handle all our issues, confusions and doubts, big enough to contain all our fears and troubles and questions, big enough to carry all our pains, sorrows and remorses.  We are surrounded by a Loving Acceptance large enough to accept us with all our failures, inconsistencies and deceits.  A Love big enough to contain ALL!  ALL!

Nothing we do, say, think or feel could ever take us out of Him, make this Love evaporate, cause a breach between us.  This Love is our atmosphere, the space we exist in, the air we breath and the realm our whole life is played out in!  "In Him we live, and move, and have our being."  This Love is the DNA of the universe, the code upon which all existence is based.  We can no more escape this Love than we can escape our own DNA!  It is so true that "God is all, and is in all!"

So how could we ever be out of Him?
And how could we ever get Him out of us?

IN!  IN HIM!  What a wonderful  place to find ourselves, what a wonderful place to live in, what a wonderful home for us, what a wonderful Being to BE IN!

Monday, October 13, 2014

Grace = Rest!

Grace means that we can breathe a sigh of relief, get off the endless merry-go-round of seeking, works and struggle...and rest!

We don't have to do anything..don't have to get anything..don't have to become anything...
We already ARE! 

We already are who we have always wanted to be, where we always wanted to be, one with the One who is everything..everything!

We can rest..rest!  Nothing is required of us, nothing is asked of us, nothing is expected of us.  We are perfect just as we are, and our life is perfect just as it is..with any inconsistencies, confusions, lapses, or contradictions..

Just as we are right now, just as it is right now, in this very moment, without changes a thing or ever needing to do so, we are PERFECT!  Perfect to Him, perfect for Him, perfectly with Him!

We don't have to wait for tomorrow to have that special relationship with God we've been longing for and looking for..we don't have to wait for some super spiritual state to come before we can have that deep bonded closeness with Him..we don't have to wait till we've solved all our issues and made our life work perfectly before we can REALLY have the good life with God..the good life with God is NOW!  And we are already all we seek to be, already at the place we long to be - IN HIM!

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Living as the Whole Person I Already Am

I can live a whole and full life, because I already am whole and full!

For so long I have seen myself as 'messed up' and therefore needing to be repaired.  I was always thinking there was something wrong with me.  I was always thinking I had so far to go, that I was still 'not there yet,' wherever 'there' is!

But God has been showing me that not only does He love me with all my so-called, flaws, fears, issues, struggled, mess-up places and failures, that those things are not the real me anyway!  Those things, even the thoughts and feelings I have, are not the deepest thing about me and don't define me at all!

I am not what I'm thinking, I am not what I'm feeling, I am not what I'm doing...I am who I am BEING, and I am always being a precious child of God, a Spirit-self, one with God, pure, free, holy, loving, carefree, open-hearted, genuine, perfect, happy, and WHOLE!  

I am not needing to be fixed or work through my issues or be changed, improved or made better.  I am fine as is, I am whole deep inside and always have been!  My life is that of a whole, complete, intact person who is not lacking or flawed in any way!

Jesus came to reveal and release this inward whole person that has always been our true and real core self!  This is the 'very good' creation God made, in His image of goodness, purity and love, connected with Him and having only pure desires, thoughts and ways!   This very good self simply IS, and nothing can change that!  Not any failure, confusion, calamity, struggle, lie, illusion, doubt, fear or hurt can change my core Spirit self made in His very good image of Love!  Like Father, like children, our spiritual DNA never can be changed or eliminated, oh what a relief!  Jesus came to show this, He came to collect the long lost children of the King, the rightful heirs, from the land of confusion and distress where they had been held prisoner in a fog of confusion, enslavement and lies as to their true identity and parentage!  He freed us and brought us home to ourselves inside, to knowing ourselves within and also knowing our Father within in perfect family relationship!  Those blood ties, those family bonds, could never be broken, no matter what lies were told us, no matter what crazy things we thought about ourselves or what crazy ways we acted in response to such lies and thoughts!

Praise God we can never stop being His created children, in His image of love!  Thank God that we can never change who our father is or whose child we are!
Hallelujah that we have never been anything other than His beloved and holy and WHOLE children, Spirit beings at our core, full of the life and character of our Father, who passed those traits on to us!  I think deep down our spirits have always known, it's only that our hearts and minds forgot.  Thank You Jesus for awakening the sleeping children so that we rise like ones rising from the dead and enjoy that lovelight of our Papa that has been shining on us since day 1!  It only seemed dark because our eyes were closed!  Now with eyes opened by His grace and love and truth, we know ourselves as we've always been, as He has always known us, and we feel the arms of our Father that have always been around us!  How wonderful to enjoy Him, to enjoy life, to enjoy being our true selves, the whole and intact spirits that we've always been, in a beautiful union relationship with our Dad!

I won't tell myself I am messed up any longer.  I am the whole and holy child of God!  I am spirit, one with His Spirit!  Thus, just as He is, I am kindness, goodness, peace, joy and bliss!  I am gentleness, sweetness, light and love!  Whole, not broken or needing to be fixed!  Perfect, not flawed or inadequate! 

Whole and perfect and good!  That's who I am!  Just like my Papa!


Thursday, August 21, 2014

Treat Yourself as Your Papa Does!

Sometimes in the past it has been so hard to love myself, and I've been very hard on myself, treating myself badly and condemning myself.  Yet God loves me!  God IS pure Love and nothing else BUT Love!  It is alright to act like God, and God loves me!  That means I can love myself, really love myself!

We can treat ourselves just as our Papa treats us...and how does He treat us? 

He always treats us kindly, gently and tenderly! 
So we can treat ourselves kindly, gently and tenderly!  We can speak kind and uplifting words to ourselves and tell ourselves the truth, that we are truly good and pure deep down, that we never have evil motives deep down, that we never mean to do wrong or hurt others, that we always mean well, always want the best for others, always love others!

He has only the purest love and affection towards us!
So we can have pure love and affection towards ourselves!  We can celebrate ourselves, delight in our uniqueness, and be happy with our personality, seeing ourselves as the beautiful and amazing people we really are, holding ourselves with high regard as valuable assets in this world, as shining stars that make the world brighter just be being ourselves, as important beings who have something beautiful and special to share with humanity!

He never breaks our heart, never wounds our spirit, never hurts us!
So we can do the same, holding our wounded heart so tenderly, never hurting ourselves with unkind words or accusations!  We can soothe our troubled mind, can speak kindly to ourselves, especially when we are confused, hurting, and maybe lashing out in that confusion and pain, especially then when we feel alone or have moments when we can't see the truth of our belovedness as clearly..treating ourselves with understanding even when we act in erroneous ways, being generous and thoughtful and good to ourselves, giving ourselves room to breathe, slack when we fail, and space to heal!

He is always supportive, understanding, generous, thoughtful, and good to us!
So we can be the same towards ourselves - always supporting ourselves, pampering ourselves and treating ourselves well!   We can call ourselves beautiful, worthy and powerful..worthy of love and respect, strong and powerful as the God-lights we are in this world, shining with His Holy Spirit glow!  We can remind ourselves we are a beautiful Temple housing God Himself, a radiant Bride dearly loved by the King of all the universe!

He always looks at us with love and treats us with compassion!
And we can do the same!  Let's treat ourselves as our Papa does and love ourselves today!  I have found that when I have messed up, when I get confused, when I feel out of sorts, what a great difference it makes to just give myself some space, not be hard on myself but instead kind and understanding, and just speak words of love and kindness to myself.  I guess it is really like I am speaking/hearing the words of my Papa towards me!  And in those moments I see how His words truly are Spirit and truth and life!  It's like the wind shifts, the atmosphere changes, and there is a great something that gives way as the negative thoughts and feelings fall away and I feel okay again, remembering that God loves me, that I am lovable and understood no matter what, and that I truly am God's good and beautiful girl, held tightly by Him in sun and shadow!  Love is so powerful, and to love yourself with His Love is the most powerful thing you can do, I think - it's letting His own Love Presence just flood every nook and cranny of your mind and soul and fill you with pure joy, pushing out every dark thought!  I guess I never realized how powerful and important an act that could be, to love myself! 

I am realizing something about what being 'godly' really means:  To be godly does not mean pointing out one's sinfulness, saying that one is evil, or condemning oneself.  No, it means just the opposite, doesn't it!  For to be godly is to be like God, and God does not point out or convict us of sin, God does not call us evil but instead calls all His creation 'very good,' God does not condemn but instead affirms!  God practices love, not hate!  So If I am going to act godly - "God-like" - that means I am going to love myself, not hate on myself, put myself down or accuse myself!  To be godly is to love...to love in the same way as He does, intensely, purely, perfectly..and thus to be godly and act as He does means I love myself  - intensely, purely, perfectly!  HE does, so I can too!  Wow!

It is perfectly alright  - and even the most important and holy thing you can do - to love intensely the one God loves so intensely - YOU!!

Friday, August 1, 2014

From God of Fear to God of Love

For so many years I saw God in a fear-based, religious way..to me He was a "Fear God."  I didn't even realize that this was the type of God that I was taught to believe in, for I always heard "God is Love," and yet so many ideas in religion seemed to say the opposite!  So while I was saying and trying to believe God was Love, deep down there was an uneasiness because I was being presented a Fear God by religion.

So I used to believe in a Fear God!
Not the real God, who is a Love God!

A Fear God uses threat, manipulation, scare tactics and force..
A Love God is gentle, nonthreatening, approachable, never hurts a soul..

A Fear God is strict, unbending, unyielding, harsh, stern, uncaring and cold..
A Love God is warm, compassionate, understanding, kind-hearted, and soft..

A Fear God must have his way or else He flies off the handle and rants and rages..
A Love God wants the other's way and thinks of others first..and can't be angered!

A Fear God threatens harm, punishes, makes you pay, points out your faults..
A Love God never sees anything wrong with you, is never offended, sees only good in you!

A Fear God gives ultimatums, stands off at a distance in disapproval, withdraws help if you do not have enough faith/obedience/commitment..
A Love God gives unconditional promises, is undaunted in loyalty and stands by us no matter what the cost, never disapproves of us, constantly blesses, doesn't need a 'reason' to love us, loves no matter what!

A Fear God is unpredictable, capricious, mean, irritable, always about to blow his temper, always in a bad mood..
A Love God is constant in His kindness, friendly, steady and stable and sure, easy-going, always in a good mood!

A Fear God closes himself off from us, stands aloof, always promotes the idea that he is 'other,' unapproachable, hard to get to, ready to drop, desert or abandon us..
A Love God is always open towards us, open-hearted and open-armed, always embracing and including, always present, easy to be around, easy to find, for He is always right here with and in us, never to leave!

A Fear God always wears a scowl and appears to have a dark cloud over his face at all times, like a storm brewing..
A Love God always wears a smile and has a sunny disposition, like a cloudless summer day where nothing ever goes wrong, where all is well in every way!

A Fear God cannot be counted on and may leave if you mess up..
A Love God is the most secure place in the universe and will never let you down!

A Fear God uses force, demands, and rules..
A Love God has only kindness, acceptance and grace, and sets us free to do anything at all, loving us no matter what, giving us absolutely no rules and no boundaries, demanding nothing from us and expecting nothing of us, freeing us to be ourselves and do anything - even fail - thus proving His love is unconditionally ours!

A Fear God is a fake, false god!
The Love God is the only true God who will always hold you in His arms and smile upon you with delight!

It is so wonderful to know that Fear God that I was so afraid of was never ever real!  It is so wonderful to know that God has been a Love God, a Daddy God, all along!  Thank You, Papa, that You are Perfect Love, and there is NO fear in Love!  Your Love for us drives out the fears we have had, and in its place we find security, joy, peace, comfort, acceptance, REST!


Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Walking with Christ from Incarnation to Ascension - Day 28 - Discover Great Treasure!

Through this course, my thinking, my perceptions, my attitudes and my whole life experience has changed! I’ve found out my origin, that I came from God and existed in His heart pure and innocent before time began. I’ve found out the truth of union, that I’ve been made of God and we’ve always been connected (not separated). I’ve learned the truth of my true nature, that made in His image I’ve always had His good nature (not inferior). I’ve heard the gospel that God has saved me from all the lies of separation and inferiority I’d believed. I’ve discovered the finished work, that God found me in Christ before I was lost, fixed up the problem the lies caused in my life before I even drew a breath. I’ve discovered that Jesus joined Himself to me in my darkness and pain and brought me up into His life and light. I’ve discovered that God loves me unconditionally, even in my messes, and I can be honest and genuine and naked before Him without any shame, so great is His love and acceptance of me. I’ve discovered that God already put me at rest through Christ’s perfect work, and that Christ will manifest through me without my help. I’ve discovered that it’s okay to be me, that God is fine with me as I am, that who I am is beautiful and a gift to this world. I’ve discovered Christ inside me, and it’s changed my life, healed my soul, uplifted my heart and brought me to really start experiencing real, genuine, intimate relationship with Him! He truly has been in me all along, loving me, holding me, helping me, accepting me, understanding me, delighting in me, being the deepest part of me and the truest thing about me! The love I’ve always longed for has been here inside me all along! It is all I ever wanted in life – to know HE loved me, to just be SAFE in His arms, to have that deep relationship with Him and know He is fine with me, smiling on me, holding onto me, never to leave or let go. To be loved unconditionally, freely, limitlessly, and to just enjoy real fellowship with Him, to walk through life with Him, to be happy and love life because He is in it with me, to love others and even myself through His love flowing naturally out! The truest happiness is just to know one is loved, accepted, appreciated as you truly are, and that is what this course has brought me to see and know and begin to experience – the treasure of knowing myself loved by God deep within me!! What a great treasure I’ve discovered, Christ in me!

If I had a message I wanted to share with anyone else in this world right now, this is what is on my heart to share:

Did you know you’re a treasure to God?
He thinks you are so wonderful, priceless really!
You see your faults and problems and ways you ‘don’t measure up,’ but God performs no such judgment of you!
God accepts every part of you, loves every part of you, embraces the whole of you, without reserve, without question, without stipulation, without hesitation!
God sees the real you underneath all the junk and woundedness..He understands why you lash out or struggle as you do, He knows the lies you’ve been told, the hurts you’ve suffered. He understands you!
And He sees and knows the real you deep down – the little child, pure and innocent and sweet, looking out with wonder on this world, just needing to be loved.
He has scooped you up into His arms and will never let you go!
You are such a treasure to Him, just as you are, right now, without needing to change, get better, know more, or become more.
You are perfect to Him right now!

His eyes look on you with perfect love! With adoration! With the delight of a proud Papa looking at His child, for that is what you are, God’s child, made in His image!
God is love and you’re in His image, so you are a love being too!
That’s your true nature, to love!
You are good with God’s very goodness, being made of His good substance and in His likeness of pure goodness. You have His characteristics, you bear the family resemblance, you are just like your older brother Jesus, full of grace and truth!
And full of God – made of God and having God as the very fabric of yourself!

Yes, not only are you a treasure to God, but there’s also a treasure in you – God Himself is in you!
Yes, you were made of divine DNA, there’s a part of you that’s eternal!
This spirit part of you is connected with God, so really, through all your life journey, you’ve never been apart from Him and He’s never been apart from you!
He’s always been there with you, going through everything with you.
He’ll never leave you stranded in life.
He walks through every experience with you.
He’s your most faithful friend and constant companion.
You are truly joined to Him, and He to you, in the depths of your being.
You and He are one deep down!

Jesus has removed every lie that would keep you from experiencing your love nature and unity with your Papa.
He has brought you with Him through death to all those lies that bound you in a lesser experience, a lesser existence.
He has taken care of the fallout from those lies, all the messes you might have made believing in lies, taken them all out of the way and removed them from you, killed them off at the cross and put them in the grave, never to rise up!
He has brought you up with Him into His very life, life without end, life that can’t be bound or trapped by lies, life that can’t ever be ended or killed – so you are safe in Him from any lie or bondage or even staying dead – death can’t hold you down, just as it couldn’t hold Jesus down!
Jesus has brought you up with Him to heavenly places and seated you with Him at Papa’s side, reigning with Him from the place of union and life!

You are safe with Him!
You are found in Him!
You are free in Him!
You are fine in Him!



He accepts you..
He adores you..
He delights in you..
He loves you..
He is proud of you..
He is one with you..
He is holding you..
He is living in you..


He is going to take care of everything for you..
He is going to manifest Himself through you..
He is going to carry you through it all…
He is going to love on you for all eternity!

You are such a great treasure to God, His very own dear child!
And there is such a great treasure in you – God Himself, Christ in you!
Christ is in you, and you’re going to get to enjoy His friendship forever and ever, to experience His glorious presence loving on you and flowing in and through you forever and ever!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Walking with Jesus from Incarnation to Ascension - Day 27 - Incarnation Continues!

Christ never reveals Himself apart from or separate from us – this truth is overwhelming me! He isn’t ‘out there somewhere,’ He has always been IN! He always and ever and only reveals Himself WITHIN us, as part of us, as the deepest part of who we are, the source and life and fabric of our very being!! God with us, God in us, God as us! I don’t have to get close to Him, find Him, look for Him, or move toward Him – He’s in me and in all people already.

God put a thought in my heart that Jesus is inside each and every person, just waiting to be discovered by them! It is like discovering the life-long friend and soul-mate you’ve always wanted lives right in your own home already, right in your own body-tent! It is like discovering that all you’ve ever wanted to be you already are – as He is, so are we – filled with God’s presence, overflowing with the Spirit without measure, honored, loved and adored by God, a pleasure and delight to God, a light to others, a lover, AT REST, fully qualified and prepared for anything in life! Wow!

We are divine ones in a way I can’t grasp, Jesus-inside people! In the words of a favorite author of mine, Dan Stone, ‘you are already all you were meant to be: one with the One who is Life.’ One with God, that describes a human being, doesn’t it? A meshing of God and a person, a tangible being who is the expression of God’s thought, God’s logos, Christ Himself. In some amazing way I can’t quite grasp I am a ‘little Christ!’ The incarnation continues – just as HE was with Christ, so HE is with me!

I am not lacking, don’t need to try to be more spiritual or more committed or more yielded, don’t need to ask for more wattage or dosage of the Holy Spirit, don’t need to surrender more or struggle to focus on Him, don’t need to get to another level or beg for a bigger blessing or anointing. I already AM rich, full, complete, adequate and prepared for every good work, for everything!

I love way the Mirror has 1 Cor. 1:7: “You don’t lack anything – you are fully qualified. You have every reason to expect the Lord Jesus Christ to be made visible through you.” Wow! God naturally acts like Himself, God naturally lives, manifests His true nature, loves others, overflows with kindness and goodness, flows with divine vibrancy, uplifts others – and that is Who is flowing through me! God doesn’t need my help to be Himself! Haha!

I keep thinking of a quote I read on facebook somewhere: “God will manifest your new creation life in you without your help.” Without my help! To me, that describes God’s way in me, that is ALL GRACE – it’s without my help, not needing my input or initiation to make it ‘go,’ totally spontaneously flowing from God, natural and EASY! We truly can sit back and enjoy the ride, just watching God flow! I can fully expect Him to manifest in me without my help, without my doing anything! It is as natural as breathing, as easy as pie! I love this new way of looking at the Christian life – it makes everything so natural and real and truly EASY!

The incarnation is me, is you, is everyone – we all discover that Christ is in us, God with us, IN US, and He’s been there all along! We discover that simply who we are as humans, not something unnatural that’s been added at some point but is foreign to us – no, this is who we are, we are God-men, we are divinity in earthsuits, we are heaven on earth, we are a union relationship between God and flesh people, we are the expressions of God in this space and time realm, little gods, in His image and likeness, each of us unique and individually beautiful personal expressions of Papa Himself, like a beautiful kaleidoscope, like a wonderful work of art, or as Andre says, His poem!

I am a love poem God writes to the world and I have something very meaningful and valuable to share with this world just by being me! How hard is it to be myself? It’s so easy! I always thought the Christian life was denying my own dreams and desires and thoughts and even my own personality (which is really very introverted and quiet, more disposed to long solitary walks in the woods than being in a crowd)…yet the Christ life that is in me, as me, is all about me being ME! God wouldn’t have it any other way, He’s made me perfectly, just the way I am, with all my personality quirks, as a PERFECT expression of Him in “His Susannah form” – yes! I glorify God by being myself. He naturally shines through without my having to do a thing.

All of life becomes a spiritual experience! All of life becomes saturated with God and with grace! All of life becomes His expression of LOVE to the world! When people see me they really do see Him! When I touch them, He really touches them! He is living through me, as me, without my help, simply by me being ME! Wow! The incarnation continues!

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Walking with Jesus from Incarnation to Ascension - Day 26 - Introducting a Person to Christ

I feel in this class I have been introduced to Christ all over as if for the first time! And it has truly been a Spirit encounter, encountering God as Unconditional Love right in the midst of my confusion and messiness and failure, which has shown me that this Love of God, this relationship with Him, has never been based on me to set it up or keep it going – it has always been about Him! I’ve seen with great relief that it has always been about God’s initiative, not mine. For HE has come and brought me to see that truth, it hasn’t been my work at all. All I did was get myself into a dark hole full of lies and confusion and failure. He revealed Himself to me in that hole and pulled me out by simply showing me the truth, by simply loving me back to sanity. And the biggest lesson I learned was that if He could love me THEN in that dark place, He really DOES love me no matter what, unconditionally, I really am completely accepted! If He really stick with me and be with me THEN in that confusion of believing lies about myself and Him, He really WILL be with me and stick with me forever, I really am safe and secure!   He has awakened me to the truth, the reality that always was and always will be, that I am His beloved child, held constantly in His tender care, and all the dumb things I did were never from the real me at all, they were a product of lies I’d believed and all along I’ve been His, I’ve been loved, I’ve been one with Him, I’ve been home!


For me it’s been so amazing over the course of the last few months to watch Him bring me:

- from thinking “what do I have to do” to realizing I don’t need to ‘do’ a thing…
- from thinking I am so wretched and shameful to seeing that I’m an innocent child, His ‘very good’ girl…
- from feeling I had a sin nature to seeing I have a good nature, His own DNA being my true core essence…
- from feeling alone and unloved to knowing that He loves me, no matter what…
- from trying to hide my sins and ‘look’ okay to being able to admit that I’ve failed in some big ways and am sometimes a mess (being able to do that because I found out He loves me WITH those problems and sins – WOW – that has blown me away!)….
- from being argumentative over doctrinal issues to just realizing the rest that comes from knowing Him loving me….
- from seeing others as ‘the other’ or ‘the enemy’ to seeing us all as one big family of good little children, some of whom have forgotten whose they are, all of us just needing to know we’re loved, needing to experience that love, but really wanting to love deep down…
- from being absorbed in my own problems and troubles to actually being at peace and full and suddenly able to see others and their needs and finding joy in blessing and helping other people…
- from being so hesitant to pray, withdrawing from God, to being able to talk to Him more freely…
- from having self-loathing to having self-acceptance..
- from seeing God as so separate from me and so harsh, demanding, and disappointed in me to seeing Him as Pure Love, always love, always open and friendly and happy with me…
- from seeing Jesus as someone who satisfied God’s violent retributive urges so I could barely be tolerated by Him, to seeing Jesus as my older brother that God sent to show me how much He loves me, to free me from false ideas about Him…
- from condemning and judging myself (thinking everything is the ‘law’ way) to seeing myself as never judged, never condemned, only totally accepted and loved and embraced (seeing things in the ‘grace’ way, which is the real way it is!)
- from thinking in a dualistic way to thinking in a oneness way…
- from thinking God is all about ‘needing a payment’ for wrong in a police or law type justice, to seeing God is all about forgiving and restoring, as a much better and healing definition of justice….
- from thinking we must get all our ducks in a row or we’ll be rejected eternally to daring to hope that God is so big and so loving and so smart that He has found a way to bring everyone home and heal all hearts with His love, without violating anyone’s free will at all…
- from seeing God as waiting on us to move to seeing that God has moved in an eternal way for us all and that Jesus has put us right on His lap in glory…
- from thinking we must do our part to realizing that Christ has taken care of all the ‘parts’ and we are home free already, we’re just waking up to it…
- from seeing faith as a work to seeing faith as a natural and automatic response to the good news He tells us…
- from trying to get home to realizing I already am home
- from feeling so out of the circle of love, of the Trinity, to seeing I’m within the circle!

Those are the exact things I want to share with other people! The things that already ARE true about them and God and their relationship with Him! It is so exciting to think of us all experiencing God and just knowing His love for us and seeing ourselves as He sees us, realizing we are ALL the beloved ones of God!
So if I think of introducing someone to Christ, I would want to have it happen just as naturally as it did for me, just watching God awaken another person to reality, just sharing with them the good news of what’s already true for them. Evangelism is so different now, it’s more like sharing some wonderful news with a friend, rather than trying to ‘change’ anybody…we don’t need to ‘be changed’ but to hear the good news of what is already true, who we already are, and how close and loving and favorable He already is! Introducing someone to Christ really is helping them relocate themselves mentally and see that they’re in the throne room with God, as one of my friends, Susan, says so beautifully! It’s also introducing them to themselves – I love how Andre Rabe puts that, how Christ always is revealed as in a mirror, someone you find within you, and in whom you find your own likeness – in whom you find yourself. When I looked into His eyes I found myself, I found out I’m the one Jesus loves. So to me, sharing about how loving and good He is with someone else (not ‘doing evangelism’ on someone, but just talking about Him as it comes up naturally in conversation, or just loving on people because I want to, not because I have to or because they are some ‘project’ for me to ‘minister to’), well when that happens, they get to look into His eyes and discover the same thing, that He is the Lover and they are Beloved! And they hear that ‘echo’ from within them, have that inner knowing that this is true! He touches people through us and also rises up within each person, revealing Himself both TO them and IN them!

My friend Kristian Holmes describes living and sharing this good news in this way:   "You are a witness of a firsthand encounter you have had with your Father. This encounter affects the way you live your life and causes you to touch people with your true DNA. Every person has the same DNA and as we live in harmony with our true selves other people awaken to who they really are."  Amen!


Nowadays I don’t want to ‘do evangelism’ at all, it is not about ‘doing’ anymore. I just feel that life is all about being loved, and thus naturally overflowing with love, and that from that overflow people encounter Him and feel His love for them…It’s like we’re standing under the waterfall of His love and grace, and the spray naturally bounces off of us onto others around us, and they get a love-soak too! It’s like having an infection (in a good way!) called Jesus and infecting others with His love without even being aware you’re doing it!! It’s like we’re just dancing around with Jesus, locked in His loving gaze, and one by one, more and more get caught up in the dance of love, the dance of the Trinity! It’s like a well of living water gurgling up and spilling forth from us all, spreading to flood everyone everywhere with the experience of His invigorating Spirit of love! “And the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea!” Wow!

Monday, June 23, 2014

Walking with Jesus from Incarnation to Ascension - Day 25 - What is Faith?

I have always struggled with the idea of faith…I have thought in times past that faith was a commodity that I had to have ‘enough’ of in order to make something happen (like new birth) or in order to ‘get’ something from God (like healing) or in order to hold onto and not lose something (like salvation). I Faith was something I had to somehow ‘muster up’ and then, if I ever had any, something I had to keep at constant high levels for fear of losing anything I had somehow gained ‘though faith.’ I was always examining myself to see if I had enough of this ‘thing’ called faith, and of course I always felt I never had enough! This made me feel weak, made me sometimes doubt, made me feel like a sorry Christian, caused me to expect nothing at all from God, made me feel insecure about my salvation, even.

I am so happy that all I believed about faith turned out to be false! Really, the way I saw faith, I made it into a work! And we know that salvation is all God’s work and none of ours, and not only that, His work is finished, finished from the foundation of the world! God already did a complete work for us from the start of the whole creation…and Jesus broke forth into our tangible existence and revealed it here on earth 2000 years ago…now we are simply waking up to what is already real and true! Hey, that is wonderful!

Faith turns out to be simply seeing what is already true, seeing reality! It is like the confidence and trust that comes from seeing what Christ has already done for us. We don’t work up faith within ourselves, it’s already there! It’s God’s gift to us and is really HIS faith in us, bouncing off the walls of our heart and reverberating out when we hear the good news of our salvation, of what Christ has already done and completed in and for us!

So faith doesn’t make something happen, it all already happened; faith doesn’t get God to give us something, for He already gave us everything; faith doesn’t even have to desperately hold onto what is given, for it’s ours permanently as a permanent reality!

What is it that Christ has already done, that we already are and have, that is true permanently for us? What can we say is true for the whole of us, the entire human family, the whole world, through His perfect original creation of us and His perfect finished work for us, as us? All people are already loved and accepted, already made righteous, already forgiven, already clean, already dead and alive again, already in heaven reigning, already healed and whole, already overcomers, already perfect, already innocent, already home, already taken in and included, already reconciled, already sanctified and set apart/made holy, already pure and blameless, already good, already having a good nature, already having Christ in them, already having the Spirit in them, already having God with them, already taken care of, already safe and saved, already an heir of eternal life, already in the circle of the Trinity, already in union with God, already permanently one with God, already secure, already found, already in the fellowship of the Son with the Father, already enjoyed and delighted in, already beautiful, already wonderful, already precious, already redeemed, already strong, already free from law, sin, condemnation, guilt, shame, punishment and death, already in grace, already loaded with blessings, already in resurrection life, already having HIS life, already in peace and harmony with God, already in right relationship with God, already right with God!

There is nothing left to do, gain, attain, hold onto, or become! He did it ALL, He finished His work and we are all home free! I remember when I was first being introduced to these ideas, first reading a couple of Andre’s writings, and it was as if God kept whispering to my heart, “I did it all…I took you ALL THE WAY THERE..into the throne room!” He did it all, took us all the way home to heaven and plopped us down on Papa’s lap, and that is where we all are today, whether we know it or not! He shares the good news with us of what He’s already done, and of His opinion about us (HIS faith in us!), and that faith of God echoes within us and rises as our faith in Him! When you see how much someone has done in love for you, to help and rescue you in the midst of your trouble and mess, you naturally trust that person, because they have proved their love for you. God proved His love for us through Jesus, for while we were yet sinners, in a royal mess, He died for us, He rescued us, He lifted us out of the mire and put our feet on a solid rock! When we were trapped in our sins and confusion, He saved us! When we were dead in our sinful mindset, He raised us up with Christ into resurrection life, never-can-be-killed life, always-and-forever life, eternal life, HIS very life!!! Wow! Faith is simply waking up to that fact, seeing it, relaxing and having new confidence because of it. Faith doesn’t make it happen – how can dead people have faith or make things happen?? We were dead, HE made us alive, and it was obviously without our ‘help’ or ‘our faith’ doing it or making something happen, wasn’t it? Wow! It really IS all HIS work and it really IS finished! Faith is just when we see what already happened, see reality. Faith is like Dorothy waking up in her own bed in Kansas, realizing what she’d been ‘going through’ in her nightmare was just that, a bad dream and not the real reality at all. We wake up to God’s reality that has been true for us since the foundation of the world! We wake up to the dream He has had of us since before time began, a dream of living in union with God in perfect intimacy and true innocence, of loving fellowship and a forever dance with Him, two hearts intertwined forever in complete oneness! While our dreams are fake nightmare illusions, God’s dreams come to pass and are the really real, the only true reality! We are in God’s reality and always have been, and He’s waking up the world to see it!

So what use is faith? Faith simply lets us enjoy the union we’re in, for we can look into His eyes without fear or shame, can be naked in His presence, can feel strong in His stable love, can share our dreams and feelings with Him without hesitation. Faith is like seeing where you are for the first time, not vulnerable and alone but safe in a strong fortress (His presence and love), so you don’t have to be afraid of any enemy/danger outside anymore! Once we see we are safe in this shelter of His loving arms, we don’t have to fear, don’t have to worry. And we don’t have to make any striving or effort to get to that place (His presence, union with Him), since we’re already there – so faith brings an end to strivings and strainings, brings rest. Faith – seeing reality – means we start enjoying reality, enjoying the relationship with God inside us that has always been and always will be, the deep intimacy with Him, the transparent sharing and oneness fellowship that we were made for all along and has been there all along! Faith – seeing reality – lets us stop straining to ‘become’ and instead finally relax about ourselves and our status with God, for we already ARE all we were meant to be, we are truly loved and accepted unconditionally, no matter what, thus we can more easily accept ourselves and even like ourselves. Faith lets us rest from our efforts to attain something and enjoy the party that we are already at! Faith allows us to experience this wonderful forever life with Him, the life of God flowing through our lives in wonderful tangible manifestation and experience starting right now on planet earth! 

The life of the ages that was always in us, Christ Himself, resurrection life, eternal life, wells up in us like a living fountain of fresh water and pours through us like a waterfall of love and grace and life, making the desert places green and thriving, refreshing both us and those around us! We get to enjoy life, enjoy HIM, right here and now, spirit to Spirit, perfect fellowship and communion, right here inside our skin and amongst us all, the Spirit flowing amongst us all, the river of life spreading till it fills the earth and the whole earth is filled with the knowledge (intimate knowing, communion of hearts!) of the Lord, like the waters covering the sea! Flow river, flow, fill this land with the Father’s glory!

Eternity is NOW, is HERE, is upon ALL, is manifesting EVERYWHERE! This reality is breaking forth and being seen by more and more people, oh how wonderful…this good news can’t stay secret…it’s bursting at the seams, popping out all over, exploding out from within us!! He is like a fountain that can’t be plugged up or held back by any barrier or lies, confusion, fear, or misunderstanding! He has won over all that, and HIS victory, HIS reality will be known and enjoyed. For Love wins, Life wins, Reality wins, the Finished Work wins, the Spirit wins, Jesus wins, Papa wins, humanity wins!

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Walking with Jesus from Incarnation to Ascension - Day 24 - New Creation Reality

This morning I have been pondering some great truths..
All were in disobedience, all were recipients of God’s mercy.
All have sinned, all were justified.
All were condemned through one man’s sin, all were made righteous through one Man’s righteous act.
All died in Adam, all were made alive in Christ.
All fell short of God’s glory, all are revealed with Christ in glory!

I love thinking about all humanity already being raised with Christ and even ascended and seated with Christ in heaven..wow, it is mind-boggling! The only difference between a believer in this good news and an unbeliever in it, is that one is seeing reality and the other is not yet seeing it – yet for both, it IS real!
It is a certainty that I am raised and seated with Christ, yet many times I don’t feel like it, talk like it or act like it. And this can bother me, can make me feel I need to ‘do’ or ‘understand’ or ‘believe’ something better to get this new reality to manifest. Yet I keep coming back to a quote I read on facebook recently: “God will manifest your new creation identity without your help.” Wow, that’s grace! He saves us single-handed, as Robert Capon says, and also He manifests it single-handedly! A dead person could not contribute anything, even faith, in order to bring about resurrection..dead people can’t ‘do’ or ‘believe’ anything! God had to do it all for us, and He did, through the Son. He carried us with Him through death and up into life, carried us all the way to the throne room of heaven and plopped us down on Papa’s lap! All of us, all humanity, wow!  Our wonderful position in heavenly places in Christ is a product of God's initiative, of Christ's work and faith, not our own..that way it can never be lost or altered!

So not only am I already there without doing one thing of my own initiative to make it happen (He brought it all about without my help!), but also this reality will manifest in my life without my help! God brought to mind the picture of a tree planted by the water, and I thought of how it naturally grows and thrives and bears fruit…the tree doesn’t have to stress and strain and keep doing ‘fruit checks’ – it just sits there! The sunshine and water from the river just go into the tree and life happens! It happens now, and now, and now, always and forever – life is happening right now for all of us, the oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord! HE planted us by the river of life up in heaven (we didn’t even have to ‘plant ourselves’), He planted us there within Jesus Christ, the Tree of Life, Himself. We are not separate from that tree but part of it, branches of the Vine Himself! In fact, we were never separated from Him at all but were always connected!

I love the revelation of union…when I read what Andre Rabe wrote in his book Word Made Flesh about Christ never revealing Himself as a separate entity from us but always ‘as in a mirror,’ I feel it made more sense to me than ever before – Christ only reveals Himself as one with me and in connection with me. He never presents Himself as apart from me but always and ever as a union with me. He shows me that He is in me, not as a separate entity, but as the ‘secret center’ of my life, as the deepest part of me, as ‘the most real fact about me,’ as Brennan Manning used to say! He reveals Himself as me in some crazy way! The definition of me as a human being is actually a union of God and man! I am a relationship, a union relationship of me and God Himself, in this flesh body. I look at Him, look into those eyes of love and find myself – I am the one Jesus loves, that is who I am! (And I am loved, His beloved, without any reference to right or wrong, good or bad – just accepted, embraced, loved, without any condition or stipulation!) I am a love relationship between God and man! I am a union love relationship in a body! I am not and have never been alone because the whole definition of a human is flesh matter and God’s Spirit substance together meshed together to form a human being! I never am alone. I never look out at this world alone. I never live alone! We are together here inside me. The real me, the inner child, is one with Jesus, always walking in the garden with Him, planted by the rivers of heaven with Him, sitting on Papa’s lap with Him. My constant companion, my best friend, the One who carries me through life and thinks my thoughts and feels my feelings, who understands me at the deepest level because He’s right there at the deepest level, one with me always, the One who loves me like noone else – that wonderful Person is the most real fact about me!

My friend Kristian Holmes made a wonderful statement about the new creation reality that we now enjoy, and I wanted to share that thought:  "What a joy to now actively participate in reality. All of life takes on a new meaning when we see what He sees. We continue to recognize that old mindsets and ways of seeing ourself have died in His death and everything Jesus experiences is what we are forever alive to."  Another friend, Andrea Joss, adds this:  "Words cannot tell how wonderful this good good news really is! And what it does to our souls… they are finally allowed to lean back and relax! Oooohhh! Baxter Kruger says that the Christian life consists of nothing else but discovering the reality. Just discovering what there IS already. Discovering what has been DONE. Discovering the truth."  What a wonderful journey of discovery this new creation life is, just discovering and enjoying the union life with God that already IS!

New creation reality is that I am one with Christ, seated in heaven on Papa’s lap with Him, IN love and IN life forever! I may not see or feel it completely here on earth, but no matter – He brought it all to be, and He will manifest it for all to see! I need do nothing. I can rest on Daddy’s lap, or run free in the fields of grace with my Older Brother, or dance with the Holy Spirit..or do nothing at all…I can cry, I can share my feelings, I can be vulnerable, I can even doubt, rant, throw tantrums and lash out in anger and confusion..and it won’t change a thing, I am safe in His arms of love and I cannot offend Him or drive Him to reject me, ever! We are so intimately connected that nothing can tear us apart, not even any dumb thing I do or believe. To tear us apart would be like tearing apart not only my own being, but also HIS! We are one, that’s who we are, HE and I. I can’t be defined without Him, and He has chosen never to be defined without me! WHENEVER He is revealed, I am revealed right there with Him in glory – that is new creation reality, and God brought it about and will fully manifest it without my help! Relief! Joy and peace! Total grace! For us all!

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Walking with Jesus from Incarnation to Ascension - Day 23 - Resurrection Life Now!

"We look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal."                       2 Corin. 4:18

I love thinking about eternal reality, what is true in the eternal realm!  In the eternal scope of things, we all died and rose with Christ and are in resurrection life right now, even while on this visible earth:

In Adam, all died, because all sinned. Sin entered the world..I think about that – sin entered this realm of matter – I love how it DOESN’T say sin entered humans but that it entered the world! We are born innocent and pure and good, because we are in God’s image, yet we are born into a poisoned environment, and the sin in this world affects us..we hear and succumb to lies about ourselves, lies that we hear through the world, other people, the enemy and the traditions passed down to us from our elders at church and other institutions that run on performance and legalism and conditional acceptance…and we eventually choose sin, we live as so much less than we are, we do very real wrong acts that hurt ourselves and others, we struggle with feelings of unworth and alienation from God, we succumb to self-judgment, feel the need to punish ourselves, can’t handle the shame and pain of who we think we are and all that we’ve done, open ourselves up to evil’s reign, to death. Yet Jesus comes and absorbs all the judgment, shame, pain and guilt we feel; He absorbs it all into Himself, and though He doesn’t need to punish us in order to feel okay with us, He understands that our performance way of thinking makes us feel someone needs to pay for our sins, and so He absorbs those sins and becomes that for us so that we can feel okay with ourselves and feel at ease about approaching God. He takes down sin and guilt and judgment with Him into the grave, and since we are included and connected with Him in all He does, that is also our death to sin and guilt and judgment. They are once and forever separated from us and us from them! Thus He takes away our sin and judgment! We are free!

Yet He does something even more wonderful in the resurrection: In Christ, all are made alive! Christ was raised because of our justification – our righteousness! He vindicates our righteousness through His resurrection! When the sin and lying identity, the fake man that never was the real us, is put down through His death, the innocent original self that we really are is revealed, righteous and pure and good! And since you can’t keep a good man down, Jesus cannot be kept down in the grave, and neither can we! Death has no hold on Him, there is no sin on Him that would lead to death, and no law or performance way of thinking there to demand death anyway, for that whole system has also been set aside and separated from Him and us at His death. So there is nothing to keep Christ – or us – in the grave! So His resurrection is proof of my innocence, proof that my original self God created is and was always good, pure and right in His eyes, fit for relationship with Him, compatible with Him, in His image of love and thus a love being just like Himself! Wow!

How can we be sure that all that He went through includes us, that we also went through all that – how can we be sure that just as He died to sin, so did we, and just as He was raised and now lives to God, is alive to God, so are we? I love how Andre Rabe talks about electron entanglement, how since everything has a common origin or source, everything is still connected and touching! We are all entangled with Him, because He is our source, creator and origin! We flow out from Him like little electrons, always bearing His charge, always attracted back to Him, always oriented toward and with Him, forever intertwined with Him, our destinies connected with His, so whatever He does and whatever happens to Him has an effect on us in an ultimate way! This helps me so much in understanding how what Jesus went through is also what we went through. I love how my connection with Jesus is prior to and thus stronger than my connection with Adam, for Jesus made me and thus for my life, all that He does trumps all the effects of what Adam did! I love being tied like this to Jesus! I love that my connection with Him is waaay stronger than any connection with Adam or with sin/lies! I love how He has carried me everywhere that He Himself has gone – through death and into the grave, and then up from the grave and into resurrection life!

I love what my friend Andrea says, that 'resurrection life now' means just “being the ones we truly are!” Resurrection life isn’t something to try to attain to, something that is so super-spiritual that it feels unreachable except for the ‘really committed’ – it’s what we all are in already, all gathered up in Him!! Wow, it’s not something to reach for (as if there is distance and delay involved) but something to sink into and enjoy, as in enjoying the soft chair you have already been put in or enjoying the party you are already at! I have spent my whole life feeling I need to do or be ‘more’, feeling like I was always ‘not there yet,’ but what a joy to find I am already there, already fine! It reminds me of a quote by Dan Stone in his book, The Rest of the Gospel: “You are all you were ever meant to be: one with the One who is Life!”

What a wonderful life we already have with Him, what wonderful relief and rest to already be in LIFE! We’re in Life and we’re never going out! He takes off every bit of strain, stress and pressure to ‘do’ or ‘attain’ anything..There is not even one thing left to do, even believing doesn’t make anything happen, for it ALL already happened, didn’t it! He has done it ALL, all is safe and all is well, all are home, all are alive in Him! Faith must be simply spiritual sight, then, not making something happen but seeing what’s already happened, seeing this eternal and really real reality that may still be partly invisible yet is truly real!

So what do we see with the eyes of our spirit?  What is in this really real yet partly invisible reality?  Well, it’s such a wonderful fresh world over here in this eternal realm! Instead of spiraling ever downward into decay from sin and its effects , I am spiraling ever upward into real abundant flourishing from His life and its effects! His life has the final word in my life, not any sin or lies! The fake identity is shown to be nothing and the true identity is free to flourish! I am not judged on performance but instead freely accepted by grace, for law is not holding sway here, grace is! I can fail and still be just as loved, accepted, included, and right with God as ever, for this is a place of secure love given from a Father to His children, not a place of a servant working for a Boss, with his position in jeopardy at any time. This is a place of oneness, not duality or separation. This is a place where we don’t have to think of sin or good and evil but where there is simply the enjoyment of union relationship with Him! This is a place of Love, not Fear. A place of truth, not lies. A place where God has already conquered death and the grave, lies and the curse, so what is there to worry about, for all will come out well! This is the place of freedom, not restriction. This is the place of BEING, not trying to become good or trying to stop becoming bad. This is the place of fullness, not longing. This is the place of rest, not struggle. This is the place of completion, not feelings of inferiority. This is the place of union, not separation. This is the place where Jesus IS, and I AM in Him, tucked forever with Him into the Father’s bosom, saturated with the Holy Spirit, caught up in the fellowship dance of the Trinity! This is the place of Resurrection Life NOW!

Monday, June 9, 2014

Forgiveness is Release!

  • I love the idea of being released and freed! I read somewhere that when Paul talks about forgiveness he is talking about release from something, deliverance from something that is binding the person who has sinned..so it wasn’t that God was offended and had to somehow calm Himself down and say ‘ok, I forgive you,’ but that He is our good Daddy who steps into the mess we’ve made and says, “Don’t worry, I can fix everything good as new, I still love you, I’m right here,” He is so understanding and doesn’t just fix up whatever mess came from our wrong acts, but He understands why we acted that way in the first place, and He heals that wounded spot in us, shows us the truth of His unconditional love which dispels the lies that have entangled us and made us act crazily….and that frees us from our guilt and shame, frees us to relax in His presence, frees us to live not by law (trying to do right and then feeling self-righteous, or trying and failing and trying to hide behind masks and feeling ashamed) but to live by grace, just being ourselves and enjoying life in the light of His acceptance and unconditional love!

    I love that definition of forgiveness as release, (so similar to the idea of redemption as claiming and freeing what is one’s own, and the idea of salvation as deliverance, wow!) and I think that with that release from all the lies and sin that was holding our true self down, we are now freed to be that real self, the real self emerges at resurrection and live free and happy and secure! And it isn’t just the real self but the real self is actually me in union with Christ, right! He has tied me to Him and takes me with Him wherever He goes, down into the grave to release me from the sin that was attached to me, and also up into new life to finally get to be my true self, the inner child being lifted up into real life with Him! And tied thus to Him, we can never again be fatally wounded by sin, bound by death, or fatally held captive by lies! Sure we may sin or get confused, but the lie doesn’t have a death grip on us anymore, death is conquered by the power of an indestructible life!
May the amazing grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, the extravagant love of God, and the intimate friendship of the Holy Spirit be with all of you. 2 Co. 13:14